Light Reading

 

This is my view as of 3 am this morning :)  And to say I am enjoying it would be an understatement.

I shouldn't be here, where I am in this moment.  In fact, I believe that any Christian who understands his position, would and should feel the same.  "there by the grace of God go I."  that's what I think of in these moments.

It is His grace, and His mercy - and those items alone - that have allowed me to have all of "this."  

And I want to say that there's not a day that goes by that I don't realize it.  but that wouldn't be true. Most days, though, I do remember.  Remember who I used to be - an arrogant condescending individual who was so lost, he didn't even realize it.

I suppose that's why I relish 2 am risings.  I've found it's the best time that I can study His word.  I get to search multiple translations and immerse myself in the "treasures and the mysteries". The Holy Spirit convicts, counsels, and speaks to me through His Word. And I am so grateful that He does.

Thank you Logos for such an amazing program, that has allowed me to return to my first love.

Thank you Dr. Osborne, for the work you laid out in your commentaries.  I cannot study a New Testament passage without ensuring I have one of your commentaries. And thank you for showing me what it means to be both a scholar and servant of Christ.

(A lesson to us all - we may never know on this earth the lives we've touched. I'm just grateful.)

And most important, thank you God for saving me - from sin, from hell, and from myself.  All glory and grace goes to you, my Father, my King, my Redeemer.

Legacy

Wow, has this summer been hot! And it's only July 29th.  Still at least another month to go.

It's been a while since I've blogged.  Mostly because work, and the 2.5 hour drive a day, doesn't leave much time for else.  However, this weekend the wife went out for the night, and with the heat, most of us are indoors. Which grants me a moment to myself.

Made another trip around the sun this year, and find myself sharing, giving and serving as best as I know how.

It hit me the other day - I'm in my 50's. Don't ask me why I thought this - I suppose as we get older, we're more mindful of where we're headed. And I wondered - what will it be that triggers a memory in the mind of my family when I'm gone?  

Will it be a scent?  A song?  A favorite show perhaps? Will it be a picture, or a random Facebook memory (more likely :))

Whatever it is, I hope it'll be a great one, one that's more apt to bring a smile rather than sadness.  And that brings a prayer to God of thanks for a life well lived.

I want them to remember me as a husband/father/grandfather who loved Jesus, and who tried to Honor Him each and every day.  Who maybe had lost his way at one time or another, but in the end, lived a live fully for Him.

One who, either through his work or through his church, attempted to make an impact the best he knew how. One who was eager to share lessons learned, a listening ear, helping and serving where he could.

Someone who was extremely grateful for the life he'd be gifted, after so many years of suffering.  Who gave of us his time and his money to those in need.

In fact, I don't want them to remember me as me.  I want them to remember me that I was a child of God who lived as such.

Who, at the end of his life, only longs to hear, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

That's want I'd like it to be . . . .