The Fight

A friend of mine made a comment on my FB wall about a year ago with the phrase "Do it." Little did I know that not only did my current project mean a lot to me,but it motivated others around me. The reason I want to write today is to motivate you. That this world isn't as small or as big as it feels sometimes. And you and I are more important than we realize.

My blog is well documented that I lost my job six months ago.  This past December I spent travelling and January passed- no job. Then February came and went, then March and April and still no job.  Depression set in, unlike I'd ever felt before.  I felt that God had abandoned me, that I'd failed my family somehow.  Or worse, I thought that maybe I wasn't that good, or that smart, or that valuable.

It wasn't only until recently did I realize I was in the midst of something.  To be honest, I don't what to call it.  Some would say a battle, others a test, maybe even doing something great. I don't know. The truth is, I'm not that smart and I can't define it for you. In fact, I couldn't have even put this experience into words until yesterday when I came across this video. (you can find the video here)

Many of you know that I'm a man of deep faith.  So when I see or hear motivational videos, I think they're okay, but I don't like to get too worked up about them.  I've found in my own personal life that getting excited and motivated about something is great, but I really don't "do" anything.  Sure the rush of the excitement of those emotions are great, but I want something more, you know?

I was in the midst of a fight.  I could relate to being knocked down.  I've never been "out", never will be because God will always take care of me.  But I was at a turning point. Would I fight, or stay on the mat?

I've received quite a few rejection emails since I started applying for jobs. I've even thought of taping them to my office wall to serve as motivation.  I've received so many that I began to take it personal.  But then I heard this video and realized that maybe it's time to fight.  So I put my gloves on . . .

Maybe that's where you are at.  Maybe you're like me, not even realizing you've been knocked down, unable to hear the count out.  Maybe you're head is swimming and it's all you can do to keep your sanity.  Don't worry, I've been there too. And I promise you.  If you put your trust in God, he'll never fail you.  It'll get tough sometimes, but you're like a diamond.  He's using those tough times to cut off the rough edges and make you to be the man/woman he wants you to be - and that you want to be.

For me I found my "why".  Four hours and six libraries later, I stepped in the fight and am coming out swinging.  Ring the bell . . . .