Hello readers - well okay, all 2 of you: ) It's been quite a while since I've written. The reality is, I've not had much to say, been enjoying life really. Enjoying the first days of school for Stephanie, learning the ropes. Every time I get home, first words out of Stephy's mouth are "Can we do my homework now?" Bless her heart, not her fault she doesn't know Daddy needs just a few moments to collect himself before hurtling into another project. Totally didn't see that coming. But I love it!
Everyone is working, separately but together, and we're all still adjusting to each other a little. But it's worked out far better than I could've have ever imagined. Wife is now working in the mornings and off at nigh, and life just got better. So instead of blogging about life, I've been living it. Well, okay, if you're really wanting an answer for my absence- Wordpress is to fault, really. Tried moving the blogs there, but just couldn't get used to the feel or the look. So I moved back to Blogger and here I'll stay.
It's not to say that the last few months have been completely easy. This past summer, I learned that our company was acquired by another. Being a completely nostalgic noob, these last few months have been quite hard. I've seen a company I've worked at and enjoyed thoroughly for the last eight years die a slow death. People I'd worked along side of, argued with and even battled a little, respected and loved, disappear one by one.
And I hate it. Being the company that is purchased is hard. Many corners, many rooms hold a significant amount of memories - I find myself pausing and reflecting alot lately . Sure, I still come in and do the work, just like I've done these last eight years. But it's at times like these that such memories ware heavy on my heart.
I remember the personal victories I've had here and the lessons learned. I recall those who've moved on who have invested in me, and of course I'm grateful. If I'm honest, though, I'm a little bitter and I'm working on it slowly. I didn't ask for these changes, I was more than content enough for life to continue as it was. So why do i have to find myself another job - now? Crap.
I'll miss talking to the guys/girls in the morning, or reading the comics. I'll miss playing the Christmas songs in our office, the laughing in the midst of the constant ebb and flow of work. The smell of Keurig coffee coming around the corner, and the constant banter from now departed employees. Sigh. Change sucks. I really hope though I can find a company that was as much fun.
But I am grateful, you know. Grateful for all the good I have, including this job :) Grateful for the memories, for the growth in my life. Grateful for the opportunity to invest in others, and be invested in. Grateful for all the opportunities I've received - and there were many. Grateful for it all.
Not sure how to end this - there's no phrase that effectively sums up how I feel. My heart is pretty heavy, and I'm sorry that this is a little dreary. So rather than coming up with something clever, I'll just end it - for now.
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